The End is Near

Why do most people stress out before finals?

Is it because they have it built up in their heads that these two weeks is going to determined everything...

I would have to say that when I started school I was the one that felt that so much is being determined from finals. Now that I have a clearer view of what I want to do I have realized that I want to be happy. Stressing over school and causing me to become sick isn't how I want to live my life anymore. I want to be able to enjoy school again. I don't want two weeks to ruin everything. I am not going to stress over anything and try to enjoy ( as much as I can enjoy test) and celebrate the end with a bonfire. Now I am not burning books, but I am burning the old stressed out me, figuratively speaking and embracing the new and improved me.

So after Tuesday the 11Th its out with the old and and with the new....

Group Process

After finishing the group project, I realized that the communcaiton could have been better. I do feel like the project is going to be great. That it is a topic that everyone is going to be intrested and going to be informed about something.

Speech

Today has to be the day that I give my third speech in my oral communication class. I have been ready for the past week now; but my name hasn't been called yet.

I wonder why is talking in front of a crowed such a painful things for some. I understand that at times it is hard and all those eyes looking at you would make anyone want to cry. I think that I am okay when it comes to talking in front of a classroom I have my downfalls like most. And I get in the habit of feeling like I have to hurry up, but i am hoping that this is THE speech that I do great on, with no negative feed back

wish me luck...

Sports

I was sitting and thinking of just how much communication is used in the sports world. This came to me when I was watching this commercial and it showed people talking like you would with baseball..then it got me thinking, how many other people use "sport" communication to talk to someone. And if you break this down its more then just the way they talk, but their also is eye contact or the signs and signals most athletes use. When a person actually sits down and thinks about just how much communication is used and all the ways its used as well..it honestly blows my mind.

self

Can one have miscommunication with yourself. What if you think you have it all figured out, then come to find out, you are completely lost and don't know what you want out of life. I sit before you in I am lost, I really don't know what I want anymore...I would love to be able to just take a semester off and "find" myself, but I just feel like its a way for me to run. I just can't seem to make myself focus anymore. I just can't seem to make myself want to achieve the excellence that I worked so hard for in high school. I just need to figure out with myself what I really want.
Step one: I am going to move
Step two: I want to be happy with the career I choose in not worry about the salary
Step three: I want to make the steps needed to more forward and not dwell in the past
....no how to achieve these steps is something that I am still working on...

Spring Break

During my most recent trip back home, my great grandmother fell and broke her pelvic bone. My mother is doing worse, my father hardly talked to me. The relationship I have been in for 3 years is currently on the rocks.

After this fun filled week of question, All I can think about is what I should do for my self. I have nothing but questions spinning around in my head and I don't know which way to even start thinking about this. I have having to try to decide what is the best choice for me, either way I go on this one its a lose lose situation. If I stay I miss out on my family, If I go I could be passing up the best thing that has come in my life.

I want to go back to when I was a child, when my parents pick what they thought would be the best out come for me, I don't want to hurt anyone and I really hate conflict. Anyway I look at this one conflict is going to be present and someone even including me is going to be hurt.

Wish me luck today starts the day of the rest of my life......

Growing Up

When you are younger you have many chances to make the right choice...a lot of those right choices are presented in front of you and your parents even try to guide you. But a miscommunication with yourself leads to the wrong choice and has many consequences.
Once when I was younger my mother would tell me all the time that I need to listen to her, and not hang out with certain people instead of listening I did the complete opposite and made some wrong choices that to this day I am still learning from....I wish at times I would have just stayed home instead of going out...